i love you kayli!!! and i'm so missing my sisters now especially at this point in time ): today i wanted to pick up e phone and give mel a call, when i realised that she's not in spore & i can't call her as easily as i want to anymore ): so i sent her a SOS sms. roars.

anyway. basically that SOS sms says that i'm royally fucked. big fat time -.- what is it with me and _______. i swore never to get involved in something like that. and here i go again. bloody hell. i refuse to let myself do that no matter how much i want to. and i don't know if looking at all that is going to make me feel worse or reinforce my will. blearghs. i'm not making sense, but i just need to get it out. its giving me such a headache, and unncessary trouble.

sighs. on another note, i just got back from fcuk. which was really really very fun (: abit like orientation in j1, just without that awkwardness. nai rocked (: my og. haha. we were super enthu, but all this enthu-ing and RUNNING (yes running) around whole of sentosa has left me incredibly drained and tired.

plus that problem above, i'm physically & emotionally drained. sleep sleep sleep!

but fcuk with that my future schmates just makes me yearn for london a tad bit more (:

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